nothing to me

what the meaning of my life..happy , sad , moody , sick , pain .. that happen to me is my life ...if yes is my life i will accept it true my heart ..because now i having all about this ....if tat guy dun want to chat with me is ok , dun want to care also ok ..i dun mind ..nothing happen in my life and never be happy it all ...just also sad and moody ....

after i know tat guy but tat guy always to hurt me but i dun mind it all because i like him so much ..what ever tat guy hurt me and make me sad ...ya many ppl say and tell me fall in love with someone not too easy to get it ..many promble will happen it with us ...and than i tell my friend ya what u say is true ...i know tat guy not so care me more i think tat guy so hate me for all ...always need ppl care it ...i also know tat guy never have feeling with me ...all about tat guy i know all ...

tat guy not belong me ..but i din hope tat guy will belong me ..i just want to wish tat guy will always happy than i will happy too...! broken my heart are tat guy will know it ..tat guy never know it my promble and also my sick now ..! tat guy always ask me how are u today ? i just let him know same thing and havent to change it ..acutally have something to change is my sick..

i dun let him know because i dun want he more care me again ..i know tat guy care me because i sick ..and also pain ...i vomit now and bleeding now tat guy also dunno it because i din let him know about my sick and pain now ..and also doktor say what i also hide him ...

now tat guy seldom to sms me and also chatting with me and also seldom to talking happy thing ..i know now tat guy dun want to leave me alone here .. maybe i thinking is negative ..how i think positive also same to me ...also seldom to sms me and seldom to care me also ..than what is the life for me? should i become happy girl , sporthing girl ...all need to ask myself but myself cannot to let me know what i should to do ...

now i know so very hard to fall in love with someone and tat guy in material of married .. why me so stupid din think it carefully .. maybe him is my jodoh ...but i din believe my jodoh ...tat guy say all is truely and also have a full meaning .. i like it but will make me broken heart ...tat guy say love is not blind ..love never blind ..is emotion that blind .. after broken off with the last one .. will easy fall in love with someone that care.. that is emotion ...not love... i have to read in many times....

tat guy online but tat guy din chat with me .. so i know tat guy dun want me to disturb tat guy anymore and tat guy want me to know tat guy was married already ...ya i know u married already and i know u wont have feeling with me never mind is ok ...i din push u it ...just be ur self ...i know u like to care ppl so maybe i terasa and falling in love with u ..sorry for all about this ....

Tat Guy IS U ...

what meaning of love ? love is make ppl have or sad ? love make ppl cry or laugh ? love is wish or just a blind ? today i can feeling what is the meaning of love..! i already fall in love someone .but tat guy like nothing happen and dun have any respond ...should me let tat guy know it ..!

last nite tat guy have tell me ..him ask me who is tat guy u means ...and than i ask him to guess who i say tat guy ? him say i hate to guess it ..so i let him know ..tat guy i say is u ..but tat guy look dun have any respond ...oh my god ..are him reli dunno or just look nothing happen it ..but should me let tat guy know i was fall in love with him ..should me do like this ...?

ya i know tat guy so seldom to sms me and also seldom to chat with me ..i know tat guy so very busy it .until dun have time to sms me and also chatting with me .. i can to terima it because is tat guy job what i can do ...today tat guy so seldom to sms me ..sometimes so miss him ...

everyday i see my hp see have any msg coming to me or dun have ...i wait and wait and wait ...at last tat guy have sms me and tat guy send to say good day ? just simple one tat guy send to me ...just a simple sms for me but is tat guy make me happy and so happy to working ..after in hour my feeling become so very bad mood because tat guy late to reply my sms ...

in evening tat guy sms me and let me know just now tat guy accident ...oh no after i hear my heart so very pain..i din scare what ..the 1st thing is i so very scare to lose tat guy ...i cannot to live without tat guy ..after it tat guy sms me and say nothing to me but dunno tomorrow what happen to me ...tat guy make my heart become ice...

i just want to u tell me i miss u and i so care u ...but look so hard for tat guy tell this thing ...! i always ask tat guy are u miss me ...tat guy din answer me ..than i know what the answer tat guy will give me ...! i know tat guy din miss me and din care me already ...! because i silly girl ...!
than better i become silent and dun want to ask tat guy more thing ...! just my feeling and my pain me know only ..

u and u and u again

so moody now ...mm maybe miss someone and need someone to chat with me...but him still not yet to online it maybe tat guy scare me already ...i have see tat guy online just a while only ..i got sms tat guy and say online din let me know ..and than tat guy tell me just up load report to bos ..i say ok ..! later tat guy sms me again say sorry i busy now have something to do ...

why i should to miss tat guy again ..today tat guy so late just sms me only but so late to reply me ..huhu feeling so sad also ..not like before so many sms coming to me and have a nice chat ..now all become silent again ...tat guy seldom to sms me again ..if sms just a moment only ..i think tat guy was boring to chat with me ...i also dunno what happen ....

tat guy make me so many thinking it ..i cannot to stop thinking of tat guy ..when me working i cannot to hear about tat guy company ..i will more miss tat guy but my friend always say that company name than i dun want to hear it anymore i know i will hurt but i look like nothing was happen to me ...and i dun want to let my friend know i fall in love with tat guy is working in hap.... trading ...

should me continue to update my this blog ... so very moody now ... oh god i so miss tat guy so much ..! i need tat guy more caring me ..but did tat guy know i have feeling with him ? i want to tell him and i so miss him ..very much ....need to hug him , need to hold him hand , need to walk with him..but should me do like this with tat guy ??? no answer ....tut tut tut

today my cousin call me ask me where me now ..i say working and than him say come on i come to fecth u and have lunch gather ...and than i scold my cousin u ah ..wat time now just ask me having lunch ..now already pass the lunch time lol..i say if u want to lunch time with me than need to let me know in early ...my cousin say ok next time ...i say ok no promble ..

i want to fly

i so miss the flight ..becouse have a lot of memory inside this flight...i still remember 1st time i use the mas flight ...before it i always use air asia only ..! mas air line more expensive than air asia ...! but tat day i dun have any choise because last flight just have mas air line only ...air asia last flight 4.oo only ..

i 1st time sit in mas air line wah so fun o ..just 45 minit only than have supper to eat and also have some drinking ...i so like it ... many time i flight here and also flight back ...

i visit my mum at kk than i using air asia or mas line ..! after i arrive at hospital kk i so exicited it because i can see my mum and tell my mum i say i using mas air line all my dream come true ..haha i so shy o if me sharing with my friend ..sure my friend will laugh me ...than i din let my friend know it just me , my mum and my dad know only ....

today i see this air plane again and i suddenly miss this time and also moment ..! 1st time i arrive ak kk airport mas ..wah so very big and also so many section ...and have a lot shopping in side the airport if air asia just a simple one only ..not fun ..just have famous shop inside tere only ...haha boring lol and so small one ..haha but better than sandakan airport here lol...shhh...

so we meet back again this flight ...! because i planning go to Kl in next year of januari lol..! i want to go taiwan in march but i cancel it and go to kl i never reach kl before so i want to see how wonderfull place in kl and how many shopping centre in kl haha ...so exicited one o me ..i want faster end this month and become new calender haha ...so funny o me ...shh dun let ppl know it

always working and dun have any time to let me relax and enjoy it.. so this time i din care huh i want go to kl also i need to take my leave in early one ..than my leave approve ... still young need to enjoy it dun always thiking working ..paper never finish .....however also same de lol...so better take a rest and relax my brain ...

but i already to promise my mum ..if my mum recover me and my bro bring my mum go to travel go to kl have enjoy .. and bring my mum eat a lot think she like to eat one ..hope so my mum will fecover faster....lui lui so miss u o mum...i dun want mum far from me ...i miss u so much and so love u ....i will keep to pray for u mum ....

sad

just come back that place i dislike it ..mm today so far not so good for me ..because today o have a lot of thinking ..! i still dunno what is the means love ...love is blind ..we cannot to touch it and cannot to feel it because if he heart far from us ...aiya thinking about he again suddenly if thinking about love ....

ya many people say love is blind and blind ..but i cannot to feel it love is blind ..! i need to touch he heart and let he know i reli fall in love with he ..but maybe not this time i let he know and not suitable time to tell he ... than i need to wait and wait and wait... did u know i love u and i miss u ..i miss ur voice and also sms ....

today my mum call me again and ask me doing what tere ...after hear my mum voice until i crying because too miss her and need to hug her ...mum can u come back to me i so miss u ...i have a lot of thing need to share with u and have many thing want to tell u ...please mum faster recover ...

i so sad have a cousin like that lol i reli dunno how to face it o ..damn it dun because u too pretty and tunjuk muka sombong ...i stand in front of u ..u also cannot to see me .. i smile with u, u also cannot to see me ..i stand so near u ...if u din see me that u blind one ...reli blind ...need to use tongkat ...need me to buy for u ..not only sister but brother also same o ..omg ..i so shy have cousin like tat ...my friend ask me u know them .. i reli dunno how to answer my friend ...just can smile only ....

i ask her u din saw me in this morning ? she say sorry i busy on the time..oh my god cheat ppl again..start now i dun have cousin like tat ..so very shy one i dunno where my face need to put it ..never mind let it over it ...ting dun care ppl say what ...important u need to care by ur self and also my famliy ..God love u ting ....

no more need to scare

sorry to all my friend ..if me seldom to update my blog ..coz my sick and pain come to me until me dun have time to write down some happy thing ...! are me silly girl ? sometimes i can feeling also i silly girl but never mind everything will be fine one..our life should go just become happy ....

today my mum and my dad calling me again ask me how and doing what now.. i just dunno them to worry me , i say everything fine and nothing happen it ..just miss my mum and also my dad ...when u all come back to my life ...because i feeling so lonely now dun have someone to care of me and dun have someone to hear my promble ...i have a lot promble who can share with me ...

i always to push my self become happy girl and also enjoy it dun always become sad girl...but many time i do it for my self ..i also dunno why i still like tat because i worry about my sick and also my pain .. i try it to relax my self ..how i try i also cannot to do it ...sometimes i so hate my self just a small thing only i cannot to solve by myself.....i want to cry it ...

if me cry now that means i will get lose all my life and i cannot to be strong girl.. come on girl dun be sad again i should become strong because my mum and dad still need u care them ...come girl ..ur sick all will gone on ..never back to u again dun think so much ..need to rest more ...dun always thinking it ..if me thinking it later my sick havent to recover it ....

why i should to face many thing in my life ..why my life never to become wonderfull life and happy life ..i so jelous one with u all ..! what u all want to get it all will become true..but me havent to become true in my life ...u human and me also human dun have any different for me ...
about love i also never to be winner..but why u will become winner...i lose it ....lose it and lose it

many people say love is blind acutally ... if us fall in love in someone never become true than we better to let he go from ur life...because he will go it and will hurt u ...i already try it to let he go because he material status is married ....i dun want to think again ..without he sms me i will lose my mood and will become sad one ...

i cannot to let he know i fall in love with he already ...if me tell he he will answer me u cannot to love me and many thing ....better let me love he and din let he know it....i think like this more happy ..if me hurt just me will know only ...anyways i love so much ......

moody

huhu suddenly tonite i dun have any mood .. my self also dunno wad happen to me now ..bad mood and my mood so very down ...! maybe tension of my working ..if can i dun want to think so much ..my life should become happy and not sad ..but all my mood i cannot to control my self ...all thing come to me in suddenly ..

working same thing lol will make me more tension lol..like today we help u and than u bad mood with us ..! jangan berlagak damn it...want me to scold he o ..u think u is who perdana menteri kah ..stupid ...! help u to prepare all thing say thanks also dun have terus buang muka ...

i hate ppl like tat dun because u is customer we need to do well for u and give u a good services ok...! we already try to serve u ...we just have one pair hand only need to use long time to do the work ..u think we are robot o..need to rush it ...if u need to rush than better come early ...

nasib i din serve he o if not sure i will garang to talk with he ...like this ppl not need to use our slow voice to talk with he...! huh? i dunno how many time i can tahan working at tere ..now i can feeling i din happy to working at tere ...more hate in tat place ...! never become happy working at tere .....

1st her son come back already to help her mum ...omg...many story happen it ...just a small thing only not need to use ur loud voice ...the office not so big just a small office only ..ur pen hilang only need to teriak mah ...ask u do small thing ur already bad mood and scold ppl ...we all have feeling not just u have feeling ..

i know u is anak bos mah need to hormat u ..but if u make me until cannot to tahan i will let u know ..dun because small thing u angry us ...! dun always we care ur feeling ...u human i also human ..u have feeling and i also have feeling ..! both of us dun have diffrent ok ... same human ...

working need to become happy and not small thing u start to angry it ...like today tat insurance is ur job than u should handle it and not pass to other follow up ..if u dunno than u should to learn it ..if my friend on leave than the customer need tat thing ..and same time u dunno than how leh

u not a chlid ok ..u big already please use ur brain to think it...dun always like a chlid ..some thing terus mengamuk ...! u want make all to resign mah ...now u come back help ur mum many ppl din tahan ur perangai ...if u is my bf sure i will die lol..! u big already need to learn how to clean up ur table ...! did u know mah ur place so very dirty one lol...u din shy mah ...

i dislike ..i know now just start only ...but i will go if me din tahan ...! make us working din happy if like tat and make us more tension ...huhu...! tat just my feeling ...