FoR My FrieNd

hello my blogger ...how are u blogger ... miss u blogger .. love u blogger ..sorry ya blogger i already 3 days din come to visit u and clean up u blogger ..haha so cute leh ...my blogger is my " boyfriend "
haha just kidding lah ..so very sorry in this few days because my body feeling so tired and also have something happen to me ...is my personal thing ..

all thing was happen to me .. example : sick , pain , crying , moody , sad , happy , and many thing emotion face ...i know many thing make my friend so sad and also crying ..i can feeling it ur heart was broken it ..but sorry i already to try make u happy than why i always make u happy but u havent to smile it and u just tell me ..i dun have mood and better i go to die ...hurt is me and not u...so u cannot to feeling it how i was broken it and also so sad in ur heart ..u cannot to understand

but my dear friend whatever i make u happy u also wont to smile back to me ..dear friend u should look in front of u and dun try to look back ..if you look back u will get hurt and ur hurt never will recover it ..u always see me happy and smile u think i so happy it ..i let u know ..i do like this all is push myself to do it because i dun want my friend worry about me ..i know u all so care me .. but the promble better just me know only ....than y i say dun try to lose him if u still love him and still need him in your heart ..both of u 2 still have same feeling why din continue it

u tell me no body can feeling it how was the heart was broken it ..but u wrong ..i can feeling it how was broken it the heart ..but how i can to push tat guy break up with him wife or dun care him wife but imposible thing tat guy will do it ..tat means tat guy never to put the feeling love me ..but u not same ..because tat boy so love you...tat boy dun want to lose you ..me ? many people tell me why u din open ur heart and accept other boy and forget this one ...

i tell them u ask me to open than can open ..i also want to open my heart but i tell myself my heart was close by tat guy and dun want to open it in this temporary ...how i get pain in my heart i also will keeping happy ...because tat guy make me so happy and have a lot of memori than i wont to accept other guy ..sorry for all guy ....than better dun wait me to open it ...if me open it i also wont to accept u all ...my other piece heart is tat guy and not u all guy ....

so girl if u think tat boy s suitable for u than dun waste ur time ..faster find him back ur side ...dun try have second times to lose him again..not so easy to get back the heart when broken it ..need to some times to recover it ..but i hope u can be happy dun think too much ..after get back him ..so u should learn how to make tat boy inside ur heart forever and ever ....i will wish u ...

ToDay My FeeLing

why today i become so lonely girl no people come to care me ..mm what happen ya ..i also dunno what happen it .. many thing happen to me but should me be happy or stay happy ..i still cannot to find out the answer ...all thing far from me all gone from me ..should be strong or just like tat ...i tell my self u can do it what happen to me and what will belong to me ...

today i can feeling my friend to get hurt..! looking she sad i so become sad ..and i need to say sorry to her because i also cannot to help u solve the promble and i also dun have change to hear ur promble ...! i know she many promble , about family , about married ..her dun want to lose tat boy ..but however u should to lose it ..come on girl wake up dun make ur dream again ..time to learn it how to lose ur hand rite now and let him go from ur heart ...

i know so very hard to let u lose him in ur heart ..but tat boy cannot to always stay in ur heart ..because tat boy not belong to u ..than try to leave it ..because my feeling same to u ... so why i cannot to help u anymore ..fall in love in someone so easy .. today we can fall in love but so very hard to forget it and stop it ..if me i also cannot to do it ...but tat boy u love have wife and also have 1 son and 1 daugther ...

me now also still have feeling with tat guy still miss tat guy but how i can to let tat guy go far from me ..like cannot to without him into my life..so very hard ...ya i know tat guy never have any feeling like miss me .. because tat guy never do it in everyday ..i hope i can get tat guy miss me ..give me so enough it and i dun hope so much ...many thing happen than we let it happen it ..if me already fall in love with tat guy than what can do it just continue to love tat guy...

i never to be lose and i tell my self how i also din lose tat guy and far it from me ..i will more care of tat guy .. maybe i not so lucky one can get tat guy heart .! because tat guy have one piece heart only and other one already give him wife ..! and just me dun get tat guy piece heart....but friend u so lucky one than me .. tat boy can give u the piece heart to u ..that's means tat boy so very like u , miss u and love u ....

ya i everyday saw tat guy online but how if tat guy online i also cannot to do anything ..tat guy online but tat guy din chat with me ..if tat guy dun chat with me is ok..i know tat guy never will more care me ...after tat guy know me fine than tat guy just say take care ur self ..just tat only ...if can i want the time all become before... tat guy before back home tat guy will say hi to me and say goodbye i need to back ..after back home tat guy will sms me ...

now anything will be change it ...so dun too hope so .. i hope at nite tat guy will chat with me but i wait also dun have ..! in working time tat guy also seldom do it to me ..i also dunno how it .! i cannot to push tat guy than just let tat guy want to do what ..if tat guy dun want sms me also how still same cannot to push tat guy do it all to me ......

dunno who will sharing with me my promble and my thing ..! now tat guy want to know it and tat guy dun want to ask it than better become silent ..if tat guy din ask me than look nothing happen it ...so why i say now no ppl care me ...mmm cannot to feeling it .. tat guy more caring with him wife than me ..me is who ? just nothing give tat guy ..just a friend only ...!

so friend i want tell u ..u so lucky one can get tat boy into ur heart...tat boy more care u than him wife ..so u should to think it ..tat means tat boy tell u already tat boy want to choise u than him wife ..make me so sad ..have boy care of u . if u sick tat boy u more worry about u ...! than dun try to lose it..! keep it and come on girl try to be strong ...u say u miss tat boy hold ur hand , hug u , kiss u and hear ur voice ..but now dun tell me u want to lose it ....if me i dun want to lose it ...i will fight it...! normal if tat boy din like u and love u tat boy wont to do all thing for u ...

but i want to tell u ..i cannot to fight it ..how i fight i also lose .. i also have a promble but u also have ... u cry than means u also like and love tat boy..but i cry and tat guy din cry that means just me like tat guy and tat guy never got the feeling ...! sms me and just want to know my sick and also my pain..after i let tat guy know ..sure tat guy will tell me ..ok lah i want continue my job.... just tat only ..! tat guy no more to ask me ..always ask me like tat...why u lucky and me bad luck ..we also same human ..we also same girl ..all is fair..but u can happy but why i cannot ...

i dun want to say hi to tat guy because i know tat guy will reply me and say sorry i busy now if not sorry now i with customer or with gf or with my bos ...all i know it what u busy will say this all to me ..! i also cannot to do anything ..! sick and pain also dun have beza to me ...mm my life ...

my life is like tat ..the god already give me a wonderfull life ..i so happy ...tat guy dun want to be my side tat is ok ..nvm ..i know tat guy so happy with tat guy famliy and also tat guy wife ...i try to make myself smile but so very hard ..want to smile also so hard and so hard to push my self happy ...! u can do it but i cannot to do it ....like today feeling so sad but i make my self look happy that is not my self ..that is push my self to do it ..smile not natural .. me look happy today but in my heart i geeting hurt again ...dun have anyone know it i get big hurt ...

in my heart i was write down tat guy name and my name put into my heart ..! but now tat guy use the knife to make my heart broken it ...inside bleeding but tat guy cannot to feeling it so very hurt if bleeding it ..! how i delete tat guy name also cannot to delete it ...! so means i cannot to forget tat guy ..! i so like tat guy ...i know all the u god to make me sad like this ..rite mah ? love is not blind...ya love not blind ..but now my heart was blind ....

oh my friend why we should try in same thing and same promble.. why both of us fall in love with tat guy and boy have wife and material in married ...why and why and why ..can anyone to give me answer..! so very silent dun have any sms from u ...than friend u sholud hold tat boy hand and dun to try lose it ..! because tat boy is belong u ..if u lose ur hand u wont to get anything ..than u will get more hurt and want to cry it ..if u think cry can make me happy than u cry i can borrow my shoulder to u..!

if u miss tat boy than try to sms tat boy , if u miss tat boy face than u need to meet tat boy than u din miss it again .. if u miss tat boy hold ur hand ..than make the time to hang out togather than have change to hold the hand ..if u miss tat boy voice and u try to call tat boy than u wont to miss tat boy voice ..if u miss tat boy hug u ..than faster find tat boy back and hug tat boy and dun lose it ...all thing u can do it ...just see ur self ..if u want tat boy make u happy than u more should find tat boy back and not sit at here cry.. if u cry tat boy cannot to see it ..dun waste ur time ..faster find tat boy back into ur life ...

nothing to me

what the meaning of my life..happy , sad , moody , sick , pain .. that happen to me is my life ...if yes is my life i will accept it true my heart ..because now i having all about this ....if tat guy dun want to chat with me is ok , dun want to care also ok ..i dun mind ..nothing happen in my life and never be happy it all ...just also sad and moody ....

after i know tat guy but tat guy always to hurt me but i dun mind it all because i like him so much ..what ever tat guy hurt me and make me sad ...ya many ppl say and tell me fall in love with someone not too easy to get it ..many promble will happen it with us ...and than i tell my friend ya what u say is true ...i know tat guy not so care me more i think tat guy so hate me for all ...always need ppl care it ...i also know tat guy never have feeling with me ...all about tat guy i know all ...

tat guy not belong me ..but i din hope tat guy will belong me ..i just want to wish tat guy will always happy than i will happy too...! broken my heart are tat guy will know it ..tat guy never know it my promble and also my sick now ..! tat guy always ask me how are u today ? i just let him know same thing and havent to change it ..acutally have something to change is my sick..

i dun let him know because i dun want he more care me again ..i know tat guy care me because i sick ..and also pain ...i vomit now and bleeding now tat guy also dunno it because i din let him know about my sick and pain now ..and also doktor say what i also hide him ...

now tat guy seldom to sms me and also chatting with me and also seldom to talking happy thing ..i know now tat guy dun want to leave me alone here .. maybe i thinking is negative ..how i think positive also same to me ...also seldom to sms me and seldom to care me also ..than what is the life for me? should i become happy girl , sporthing girl ...all need to ask myself but myself cannot to let me know what i should to do ...

now i know so very hard to fall in love with someone and tat guy in material of married .. why me so stupid din think it carefully .. maybe him is my jodoh ...but i din believe my jodoh ...tat guy say all is truely and also have a full meaning .. i like it but will make me broken heart ...tat guy say love is not blind ..love never blind ..is emotion that blind .. after broken off with the last one .. will easy fall in love with someone that care.. that is emotion ...not love... i have to read in many times....

tat guy online but tat guy din chat with me .. so i know tat guy dun want me to disturb tat guy anymore and tat guy want me to know tat guy was married already ...ya i know u married already and i know u wont have feeling with me never mind is ok ...i din push u it ...just be ur self ...i know u like to care ppl so maybe i terasa and falling in love with u ..sorry for all about this ....

Tat Guy IS U ...

what meaning of love ? love is make ppl have or sad ? love make ppl cry or laugh ? love is wish or just a blind ? today i can feeling what is the meaning of love..! i already fall in love someone .but tat guy like nothing happen and dun have any respond ...should me let tat guy know it ..!

last nite tat guy have tell me ..him ask me who is tat guy u means ...and than i ask him to guess who i say tat guy ? him say i hate to guess it ..so i let him know ..tat guy i say is u ..but tat guy look dun have any respond ...oh my god ..are him reli dunno or just look nothing happen it ..but should me let tat guy know i was fall in love with him ..should me do like this ...?

ya i know tat guy so seldom to sms me and also seldom to chat with me ..i know tat guy so very busy it .until dun have time to sms me and also chatting with me .. i can to terima it because is tat guy job what i can do ...today tat guy so seldom to sms me ..sometimes so miss him ...

everyday i see my hp see have any msg coming to me or dun have ...i wait and wait and wait ...at last tat guy have sms me and tat guy send to say good day ? just simple one tat guy send to me ...just a simple sms for me but is tat guy make me happy and so happy to working ..after in hour my feeling become so very bad mood because tat guy late to reply my sms ...

in evening tat guy sms me and let me know just now tat guy accident ...oh no after i hear my heart so very pain..i din scare what ..the 1st thing is i so very scare to lose tat guy ...i cannot to live without tat guy ..after it tat guy sms me and say nothing to me but dunno tomorrow what happen to me ...tat guy make my heart become ice...

i just want to u tell me i miss u and i so care u ...but look so hard for tat guy tell this thing ...! i always ask tat guy are u miss me ...tat guy din answer me ..than i know what the answer tat guy will give me ...! i know tat guy din miss me and din care me already ...! because i silly girl ...!
than better i become silent and dun want to ask tat guy more thing ...! just my feeling and my pain me know only ..

u and u and u again

so moody now ...mm maybe miss someone and need someone to chat with me...but him still not yet to online it maybe tat guy scare me already ...i have see tat guy online just a while only ..i got sms tat guy and say online din let me know ..and than tat guy tell me just up load report to bos ..i say ok ..! later tat guy sms me again say sorry i busy now have something to do ...

why i should to miss tat guy again ..today tat guy so late just sms me only but so late to reply me ..huhu feeling so sad also ..not like before so many sms coming to me and have a nice chat ..now all become silent again ...tat guy seldom to sms me again ..if sms just a moment only ..i think tat guy was boring to chat with me ...i also dunno what happen ....

tat guy make me so many thinking it ..i cannot to stop thinking of tat guy ..when me working i cannot to hear about tat guy company ..i will more miss tat guy but my friend always say that company name than i dun want to hear it anymore i know i will hurt but i look like nothing was happen to me ...and i dun want to let my friend know i fall in love with tat guy is working in hap.... trading ...

should me continue to update my this blog ... so very moody now ... oh god i so miss tat guy so much ..! i need tat guy more caring me ..but did tat guy know i have feeling with him ? i want to tell him and i so miss him ..very much ....need to hug him , need to hold him hand , need to walk with him..but should me do like this with tat guy ??? no answer ....tut tut tut

today my cousin call me ask me where me now ..i say working and than him say come on i come to fecth u and have lunch gather ...and than i scold my cousin u ah ..wat time now just ask me having lunch ..now already pass the lunch time lol..i say if u want to lunch time with me than need to let me know in early ...my cousin say ok next time ...i say ok no promble ..

i want to fly

i so miss the flight ..becouse have a lot of memory inside this flight...i still remember 1st time i use the mas flight ...before it i always use air asia only ..! mas air line more expensive than air asia ...! but tat day i dun have any choise because last flight just have mas air line only ...air asia last flight 4.oo only ..

i 1st time sit in mas air line wah so fun o ..just 45 minit only than have supper to eat and also have some drinking ...i so like it ... many time i flight here and also flight back ...

i visit my mum at kk than i using air asia or mas line ..! after i arrive at hospital kk i so exicited it because i can see my mum and tell my mum i say i using mas air line all my dream come true ..haha i so shy o if me sharing with my friend ..sure my friend will laugh me ...than i din let my friend know it just me , my mum and my dad know only ....

today i see this air plane again and i suddenly miss this time and also moment ..! 1st time i arrive ak kk airport mas ..wah so very big and also so many section ...and have a lot shopping in side the airport if air asia just a simple one only ..not fun ..just have famous shop inside tere only ...haha boring lol and so small one ..haha but better than sandakan airport here lol...shhh...

so we meet back again this flight ...! because i planning go to Kl in next year of januari lol..! i want to go taiwan in march but i cancel it and go to kl i never reach kl before so i want to see how wonderfull place in kl and how many shopping centre in kl haha ...so exicited one o me ..i want faster end this month and become new calender haha ...so funny o me ...shh dun let ppl know it

always working and dun have any time to let me relax and enjoy it.. so this time i din care huh i want go to kl also i need to take my leave in early one ..than my leave approve ... still young need to enjoy it dun always thiking working ..paper never finish .....however also same de lol...so better take a rest and relax my brain ...

but i already to promise my mum ..if my mum recover me and my bro bring my mum go to travel go to kl have enjoy .. and bring my mum eat a lot think she like to eat one ..hope so my mum will fecover faster....lui lui so miss u o mum...i dun want mum far from me ...i miss u so much and so love u ....i will keep to pray for u mum ....

sad

just come back that place i dislike it ..mm today so far not so good for me ..because today o have a lot of thinking ..! i still dunno what is the means love ...love is blind ..we cannot to touch it and cannot to feel it because if he heart far from us ...aiya thinking about he again suddenly if thinking about love ....

ya many people say love is blind and blind ..but i cannot to feel it love is blind ..! i need to touch he heart and let he know i reli fall in love with he ..but maybe not this time i let he know and not suitable time to tell he ... than i need to wait and wait and wait... did u know i love u and i miss u ..i miss ur voice and also sms ....

today my mum call me again and ask me doing what tere ...after hear my mum voice until i crying because too miss her and need to hug her ...mum can u come back to me i so miss u ...i have a lot of thing need to share with u and have many thing want to tell u ...please mum faster recover ...

i so sad have a cousin like that lol i reli dunno how to face it o ..damn it dun because u too pretty and tunjuk muka sombong ...i stand in front of u ..u also cannot to see me .. i smile with u, u also cannot to see me ..i stand so near u ...if u din see me that u blind one ...reli blind ...need to use tongkat ...need me to buy for u ..not only sister but brother also same o ..omg ..i so shy have cousin like tat ...my friend ask me u know them .. i reli dunno how to answer my friend ...just can smile only ....

i ask her u din saw me in this morning ? she say sorry i busy on the time..oh my god cheat ppl again..start now i dun have cousin like tat ..so very shy one i dunno where my face need to put it ..never mind let it over it ...ting dun care ppl say what ...important u need to care by ur self and also my famliy ..God love u ting ....