sorry to all my friend ..if me seldom to update my blog ..coz my sick and pain come to me until me dun have time to write down some happy thing ...! are me silly girl ? sometimes i can feeling also i silly girl but never mind everything will be fine one..our life should go just become happy ....
today my mum and my dad calling me again ask me how and doing what now.. i just dunno them to worry me , i say everything fine and nothing happen it ..just miss my mum and also my dad ...when u all come back to my life ...because i feeling so lonely now dun have someone to care of me and dun have someone to hear my promble ...i have a lot promble who can share with me ...
i always to push my self become happy girl and also enjoy it dun always become sad girl...but many time i do it for my self ..i also dunno why i still like tat because i worry about my sick and also my pain .. i try it to relax my self ..how i try i also cannot to do it ...sometimes i so hate my self just a small thing only i cannot to solve by myself.....i want to cry it ...
if me cry now that means i will get lose all my life and i cannot to be strong girl.. come on girl dun be sad again i should become strong because my mum and dad still need u care them ...come girl ..ur sick all will gone on ..never back to u again dun think so much ..need to rest more ...dun always thinking it ..if me thinking it later my sick havent to recover it ....
why i should to face many thing in my life ..why my life never to become wonderfull life and happy life ..i so jelous one with u all ..! what u all want to get it all will become true..but me havent to become true in my life ...u human and me also human dun have any different for me ...
about love i also never to be winner..but why u will become winner...i lose it ....lose it and lose it
many people say love is blind acutally ... if us fall in love in someone never become true than we better to let he go from ur life...because he will go it and will hurt u ...i already try it to let he go because he material status is married ....i dun want to think again ..without he sms me i will lose my mood and will become sad one ...
i cannot to let he know i fall in love with he already ...if me tell he he will answer me u cannot to love me and many thing ....better let me love he and din let he know it....i think like this more happy ..if me hurt just me will know only ...anyways i love so much ......
