what the meaning of my life..happy , sad , moody , sick , pain .. that happen to me is my life ...if yes is my life i will accept it true my heart ..because now i having all about this ....if tat guy dun want to chat with me is ok , dun want to care also ok ..i dun mind ..nothing happen in my life and never be happy it all ...just also sad and moody ....
after i know tat guy but tat guy always to hurt me but i dun mind it all because i like him so much ..what ever tat guy hurt me and make me sad ...ya many ppl say and tell me fall in love with someone not too easy to get it ..many promble will happen it with us ...and than i tell my friend ya what u say is true ...i know tat guy not so care me more i think tat guy so hate me for all ...always need ppl care it ...i also know tat guy never have feeling with me ...all about tat guy i know all ...
tat guy not belong me ..but i din hope tat guy will belong me ..i just want to wish tat guy will always happy than i will happy too...! broken my heart are tat guy will know it ..tat guy never know it my promble and also my sick now ..! tat guy always ask me how are u today ? i just let him know same thing and havent to change it ..acutally have something to change is my sick..
i dun let him know because i dun want he more care me again ..i know tat guy care me because i sick ..and also pain ...i vomit now and bleeding now tat guy also dunno it because i din let him know about my sick and pain now ..and also doktor say what i also hide him ...
now tat guy seldom to sms me and also chatting with me and also seldom to talking happy thing ..i know now tat guy dun want to leave me alone here .. maybe i thinking is negative ..how i think positive also same to me ...also seldom to sms me and seldom to care me also ..than what is the life for me? should i become happy girl , sporthing girl ...all need to ask myself but myself cannot to let me know what i should to do ...
now i know so very hard to fall in love with someone and tat guy in material of married .. why me so stupid din think it carefully .. maybe him is my jodoh ...but i din believe my jodoh ...tat guy say all is truely and also have a full meaning .. i like it but will make me broken heart ...tat guy say love is not blind ..love never blind ..is emotion that blind .. after broken off with the last one .. will easy fall in love with someone that care.. that is emotion ...not love... i have to read in many times....
tat guy online but tat guy din chat with me .. so i know tat guy dun want me to disturb tat guy anymore and tat guy want me to know tat guy was married already ...ya i know u married already and i know u wont have feeling with me never mind is ok ...i din push u it ...just be ur self ...i know u like to care ppl so maybe i terasa and falling in love with u ..sorry for all about this ....
